Why is it so hard for me to express my feelings?
I often wonder about this but never get a clear answer. I have so much of love built up in my heart for everyone around me. But they never come out in words. Simply because I don’t show it or maybe I don’t know how to show it.
I keep thinking to myself that people who are close to me will know how I feel but they never do. Even if they have a slightest worry I can easily recognize and sense how they are feeling. But till now no one has ever judged me right. I keep smiling all the time but that doesn’t mean that I am happy all the time. I guess I act too well.
Anyone else felt the same way?
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A close friend told me once 'Merin..you remain a mystery to me'! :D I'm not the most complicated person. In fact, I'm one of the simplest people out there. Yet, at time..I am quite disappointed by the fact that people don't really 'understand' or 'get' me!
Finally..I got to the bottom of it. I realized why no one seemed to understand me...because I never let them. I don't really tell people how I feel. I don't like to emotionally breakdown infront of people. I don't like to let people know that I'm weak.
Everyone doesn't have the same gift as you do (to figure out someone else's emotions). To most people, you just have to tell them how you feel! You can't expect everyone to be psychic eh! :D
I had to set aside my ego and come in terms with reality!
Kavitha.. you living up to the title huh?
I tell you wht some times when you start loving ppl so much so that you want them to be always there for you. In reality, this might not happen. Thats when we start thinking that we are not important to others. Its our way of looking in to things. Get out of it.. its fun outta here.
Idha vida serious a ennaala comment pannavae mudiyaaadhu!
same lines with merin -
ppl know what i think... i tell them! well , believe me! most of the time. i really hope i am like u . jus keep smiling for everything n hide everything beneath me.
Trust me, this will change over years as you age. It is a good thing that you don't express all your feelings openly . But as long as you do not expect the same from the rest of the people around you, you'll be a fine young woman. If not, you'll end up with hurt feelings that indirectly affects your health.
Also, my suggestion would be to slowly start opening up nice feelings, but keep the wierd ones to yourself or avoid thinking about it, because someday they'll turn in to words.
@merin-ohh merin i am have seen more complicated people. yea i guess same goes for me...maybe i should start opening a bit more so people can easily figure me out.
@prashanth-hehe..hmmm ennamo solla vara n puriyithu aana puriyala ;)
well yea ur right..i know that people wont be der for you all the time...but if your close to someone..then you should how he is..i mean his nature...but wat i am trying to say is that even my close friends dont understand me. :D puriyutha??
@raz-why do u want to be like me loosu...its good that u share everything n let others know how u feel.
@anonymous- hey next can you plss put your name..its very hard to imagine someone in a anonymous way :)
so coming to the point..totally agree with you..i do only open up my nice feelings...i have never talked to anyone about my wierd ones..and i dont really feel comfortable doing that..i dont like sympathy.
Kavi,
After seeing ur post heading comment came to mind, 'If u cant say, then y the hell she put up the post'.. Jus for fun.. :))
This topic is something new to me.. All my close friends/my hubby will find out my feelings from my face expression or by my voice.. :))
I often try to hide/change it, but couldn't.. :)) So u jus try speaking out to ur close circle, so that after sometime, they will know how u feel without even conveying the same. :) Dont keep it within urself n stress urself.
there are a lotta times i've felt tat babe- like i'm all alone n nobody simply cares.
Wen it comes to me, they either dun have the time, the inclination,the mindset or the patience- but at the end of it all,i've always realised the people who're closest to us, will love us n stand by us, even if they don't understand us- n that is tuly precious..
like my mom the other day never really understand y i had to go spend thta 2000 bucks on coloring my hair, a few days later, she came n told me 'it looks nice on you'..
when i broke up with my bf, none of my friend understood, cos they thought i was doin the wrong thing, but at the end of teh day, when they knew it was in my best interests, they stand by me today and sa 'we're always there' :)
so not to worry, ya always have an understanding person in the ones ya love the most :)
intha over a sirikra makkale namba mudiyaathu...pinaadi peria kathaiye irukum... neeyum apdithaane?
smart sensitive geniuses feel like that, and also surya fans. you must be the surya fan type. :p
heheh
no da, this is normal, it is hopeless even to try to think that they wont understand us more when we express our feelings. its heartbreaking of they mock it. who knows. jst be urself, and the rest will fall in place, but it will take time.
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