Heartbroken teenager

note- All Characters in this story are imaginative...

Well it all started at the beginning of 2003, when during the 2nd week of school I was late into class and as I walked in there was a new guy in my class. We got to know each other straight away, later i found his name to be krishna. We got to know each other better and after a few weeks we started flirting a bit and nearly every night we spoke over the phone for nearly 2 hours, we spoke about everything especially how we felt about each other ,what would happen with our families, and everything else about love and relationships and all of our problems. We ended up writing letters to each other basically everyday, one day he wrote me 2 or 3 letters in the same day.
So everything seemed good. That went on until Valentine's day, I found out that we had a compatibility of 95% and a love percentage of 110%. Well I found out that a few of my friends liked him a lot, and a few other guys liked me and I had to let them know I didn't feel the same way about them. So on Valentine's day he gave me my favorite chocolate, we found out how much we had in common, but at first I said to him that I couldn't accept it and I told him not to get me anything, but he still did. So after school we both came out of maths, he was tensed and hesitated and suddenly he asked me out, I was so STUPID, I said NO!!! when I loved him so much and he was everything I wanted in a guy and I said NO. I told him the reason I thought he understood, but a few weeks later one of my friends asked him out and he said yes to her. She knew I still liked him, and yet she did that.
Now all I can do is cry because he does not love me anymore. He hardly speaks to me now and I wonder why. Is it because I turned him down? or because I am so pathetic about this? But for now I guess I will never love anyone. I still love him heaps but its all too confusing in my mind. We don't call, we don't write, we don't flirt. every time I look at him I feel like crying.
I have tried drinking away my sorrows but it never works, they just come back to me when I become sober again.
i seriously thought i would never love anyone else again...days passed..years passed...and one day i met Raj... sat beside him..talked to him...wow the cycle started again...


Even now when i look at all these young high school kids having Bf and Gf...i just wonder how long these things are going go...arent they too young for relationships ....i guess no one here thinks in a long term way...just like a time pass...infactuation i would say!!!! still wonder if these people even know the meaning of love...