My Dreams

Hi hi hi….how u all doing???….well its time for me to finish ponnarasi’s Tag..as I promised :)


How do we go about writing this tag???

Make a post describing either the dream that came true or the dream that would never come true :) Which means one should'nt write about a dream that you think might come true in future :D Gotcha???? If you are a person who gets no dreams like me :( Then write about the dream that you dreamt while you were very much awake- I mean daydream. Hehehehe...
You can tag any number of people as u wish. :) Or you can also tag none.

Actually to be honest I don’t really get any dreams…and even if I do… I mostly forget it before I get up :)
But I day dream a lot…a lot means… a LOT..

Actually this is my most embarrassing day dream…

I think about falling on my face and breaking my two teeth in front :(. This would make me so ugly that I won’t be laugh or smile my entire life.
Because of this I am very cautious while climbing stairs and while walking in the snow, my friends say I walk like a tortoise in snow. :D

This one I have been dreaming since the time I started going in train. I think about sleeping and waking up to find no one around me in train…and the train is taking me to a place which I haven’t seen in my entire life.

I dream about marrying the prince charming :P…who comes in a white horse with a rose and takes me to his palace…hehe..just kidding….but yea I do dream about surya ;)…

I dream about having a glass house beside the lake…n to wake up with the sun shining on eyes…

I dream about going to space and exploring all the planets…actually I will tell u something if u guys promise not to laugh..:P….i think about going to mars and finding a living species and bringing it back to earth….with lots of people praising me…: )


I have tons like this…but I don’t want u guys to think I am totally nuts….;)…

Turbulance of Heart- End

Continued from Turbulence of Heart

Dear diary…

Things seem changing again…I am back in Chennai….feeling and remembering my memories which I left it here untwined. Walking along my memory lane I see half of my life spent in marina beach…bargaining with the auto driver…eating dosas and idlis…waiting for my bus….getting wet in the rain…bunking class and going to movies….and finally all the cherished yet bitter sweet memories of Karthik.

Getting married next week and not seen the guy even once tickles me a bit, but on the other hand I trust my parent’s choice.

I have heard his voice though, he called today….strong, deep and manly, his voice echoed on the phone as I picked up and said hello…before he could ask me anything I abruptly gave it to my dad.

Lost in the things going around me, I went into my room and opened my cupboard which I haven’t unlocked since the day I left. My old toys…all the greeting cards which I got since my 4th birthday till now…my school uniform….everything lay their neatly organized. I don’t remember arranging them…must be my grandmother. My eyes caught a cream color envelope unopened. Trying to recollect my thoughts of what it was….I took it in my hand….felt heavy. Opened it slowly not to disturb anything inside it…and found 6 letters .

Opened the one which was on the top...

Dear shwetha…

Remember the day when I first saw you, college annual day...remember the second day when you were waiting for the bus and the third day when you were sitting alone in the bench across the fountain. I can keep on going like this until the day u left to Australia. I tried to talk to you so many times..but I really wasn’t sure how you would take that. I followed you everywhere you went just to get a glimpse of your beautiful eyes which drives me crazy every time I look into them. my day won’t be complete without seeing you. I dropped a chain for you on my way to class, which I wanted to give you in person but never got the right time. All these letters are my thoughts …gone waste without giving it to you. The day you left to Australia I rushed to the airport only to find that you have gone very far from me. Physically far but mentally still close to me. I just wanted to tell you that..you are and will always be remembered and i will be waiting for you .

Your Karthik

Tears were making the letter soggy and wet. Unable to control my tears I flooded outside of my room to inform about Karthik to my parents. But the happiness and satisfaction in my parents face made me stop.

Certain things in life can be sacrificed for the happiness of your loved ones. Making up my mind I sat near my grandmother slowly pacing my head on her shoulders. She picked up one invitation from the pile and handed it to me.

A broad smile broke on my face as it read….Swetha Weds Karthik. Awakened and agitated I looked my grandmother…she gave me the most accomplished smile.

Was really tempting to give a sad ending…but due to public pressure…finished it in a good note…..adutha post…ponnarasi oda Tag(atha maraka mattain ;) )....apparam pasangala...naan than first..naan thaan second n sandai pottukama comments poddanum...:D..

Tagged by Brute

1. Were you named after anyone?
No.

2. Do you wish on stars?
Yea..sometimes

3. When did you last cry?
Two weeks before..while watching Pursuit of happyness

4. Do you like your handwriting?
Yes..i love it..:P

5. What is your favourite meat?
Chic chic chicken

6. What is your most embarrassing CD on your shelf?
Don’t really have anything like that

7. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you?
That I have to think about…cant trust myself..:)

8.Are you a daredevil?
Yea…I love taking risks

9. How do you release anger?
by listing to music…or talking to myself..;)

10. Where is your second home?
My university

11. Do you trust others easily?
No…don’t trust anyone easily..

12. What was your favourite toy as a child?
Barbie doll…lol

13. What class in school/college do you think is totally useless?
Behavioral organization and all the business courses which I had to take compulsory in order to complete my degree…hated them..

14. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
yea..sometimes

15. Have you ever been in a mosh pit?
Whats a mosh pit??a pit where u have mosh???:P

16.What do you look for in a guy/girl?
Someone who respects me n my family..

17. Would you bungee jump?
No way..i will faint before that

18. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
No..hehe

19.what's your favourite ice cream?
Chocolate chip cookie dough

20. What are your favourite colours?
Black

21. What are your least favourite things?
washing the dishes n doing my assignments.

22. How many people do you have a crush on right now?
None

23. Who do you miss most right now?
my grandma

24. What are you listening to right now?
Tere bin from Bas ek pal

25. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be?
Blue

26. What is the weather like right now?
Freezing cold…-17

27. Last person you talked to on the phone?
My sis..

28. The "first" thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Their eyes

29. Do you like the person who sent you this?
hmm…not so sure about that…;)..kidding..of course I love u Avi…

30. How are you today?
hyperactive..

31. Favourite non alcoholic drink?
Freash juice(esp mango or grapes)

32. Favourite alcoholic drink?
Ice wine…

33. Natural hair colour?
Black.

34. Eye colour?
Dark Brown

35. Wear contacts?'
No

36. Siblings?
yea one sis(little brat)

37. Favourite month?
December

38. Favourite food?
Naan n Butter chicken

39. Favourite day of the year?
Jan 1st

40. Have you ever been too shy to ask someone out?
Never asked anyone yet

41. Scary movies or happy endings?
Scary movies with happy endings :P

42. Summer or winter?
Summer anytime

43. Holi or Diwali?
Diwali..

44. Do you like your name?
yea..

45. What book/magazine are you reading?
Chicken soup for the soul and Readers Digest.

46. What's on your mouse pad?
Don’t have a mouse pad…use my laptops mouse..

47. What did you watch on TV last night?
Sweet November movie

48. Favourite Smell?
freshly squeezed oranges

49. Have you ever regretted breaking up with someone?
NO

50. Most tiresome thing you’ve ever experienced/done?
that would be this Tag…phewwwwww :D

Now this is my favorite part. I tag

Ponnarasi
Karthik B.S
Prasad

A must watch

The Pursuit of Happyness

if you guys havent watched this movie...i would suggest all of you to plz watch it....

What Is Well-being?

Wealth and Well-being

A Satisfied Mind

The Demography of Happiness

Reprogramming the Mind

The Traits of Happy People

"Flow" in Work and Play

The Friendship Factor

Love and Marriage

Faith, Hope, and Joy

i was crying the whole movie..yet came out contended..:))...Glad people still make movies like this...

Turbulence of heart

Dear dairy,

Things are changing again, days are rolling fast ahead as I lay in my couch thinking about the day when you first laid your eyes on me. It was our college annual day and I was busy getting my friend ready for the last dance show, when you showed up suddenly in our room with eyes wide open starring. I think you got your senses back within seconds and blurred out saying “Sorry wrong room”. I don’t know what you thought about me but I didn’t have a good impression about you as some guys purposely enter girls room with the same lame excuse. The second time I saw your face was when you climbed the stage to get the student of the year award, my first impression of you was changing a bit after this incident. You were one of the popular guys among our college while I wasn’t. Only people from my class knew me which initially bothered me but then I got used to it. After that I have seen you many times with your friends laughing and having a blast. I manage to give you eye contact all the time just in case you recognize me from that day but u always let me down.. There were always different girls around you all the time which made me feel insecure. So I just decided to stick to my ambition and work on making it true. One thing which makes me puzzled till now is that wherever I go I happened to see you, something which pulled us together even if I tried walking the opposite side.. The day wasn’t far when I heard my mom tell me that I got admission for a pre-med course in Australia and I had to leave within a month. Tears rolled down my cheek as I thought about you….my first love …It was incomplete.
I packed my bag along with the chain you accidentally dropped in the road while you were running to your class.
After 4 years …as a doctor I rarely get time to think about all these things, but as a girl you will always have a special place in my heart Karthik.

To be continued ....

One n Only

helllo guys....exam k paddikartha marakallam...annna namma rajini oda b'day va marakka ve koodathu....



HAPPY 56TH B'DAY TO MY RAJINI ;)

Exams

No television, no rock shows, no movies please. Its exam time :)

Blind

Heat of the sun
Colour of strawberries
My feminine curves
Fragrance of water lilies
Lingering of birds
Hush of wind
Dewy drops of rain

Tomorrow I will be able to see and feel all of this through your eyes

Grow old along with me!

My Birthday! what a different sound ..
That word had in my youthful ears;
And how each time the day comes round,
Less and less white its mark appears

The best is yet to be, the last of life, for which the first was made.

To all Weirdo’s out there

Tagged by Ponnarasi.K

5 weird things about me..

I cant stand the sight of blood, it gives me goose bumps…..and guess what field I am in ...Health science : )

You must have seen people eat rice with curry, but have you seen anyone eat it with chocolate, yea yea that’s ME ..hehe

I can’t stand the noise of someone chewing loud; I go bizarre and get very frustrated.

I can’t sleep without a blanket. No matter how humid it is I need something to cover me in order to fall asleep.

I talk to myself. It clears my views and helps me understand certain things. But I don’t do this in front of anyone, it is quite embarrassing.(yerkkanave paithiyum n ninnaikiranga…ithu veraya?)

I like the taste of burnt food scrapped out from the bottom of the pot.

happy diwali

ellarukkum en inniya Deepavali nal vazhthukkal

Bliss

Alarm rang at 5.00am, pressed the snooze button for couple of times. A sudden shout broke my sleep. It was my mom yelling “ehh university polaya inniku”. Oh damn, got up cursing to find the time was already 6.00am and I had to catch my bus at 6.20. I would have not gone to uni if I didn’t have my midterm today : ). But oh well, took shower in 5 minutes, I couldn’t find anything nice to wear … So I told my myself….”no one is gonna see you…un munji k indha dress pothum….”…appdinu manaskuliye ninaichikitu…went into the kitchen to grab something for lunch….to my bad luck there wasn’t any bread….kadavle….so frustrated…I was already late…innikku bus miss and exam govinda po!!!I ran down to catch my bus…luckily I got my bus…sat down..took a deep breath…my university is actually in a city close by so it takes around 45 minutes in the highway…..soo appdiya highway la po modhu…I turned on my ipod….
it was drizzling outside….cold breeze….refreshing air…splashy and wet….muddy and drifty…hurtle and misty…chumma oru romantic effect aa irrandichi ;)…my ipod was playing all romantic songs too *cough*..hehe….new york nagaram…en swasa katre…ennai kojum marthi
…uyire uyire…
made up for all my mumblings in the morning….hmmm…life is beautiful…sigh : )

Destiny

I looked outside the window
Hoping to find something; incredible and astonishing.
Like a small ray of hope!!
Thinking if it could change my destiny forever
Thinking if you will be still standing outside my window
Thinking of the sweet and cherishful days that passed by,
I do not know what destiny holds for me
But I know now that I am nothing without you.
Tears came rolling down my cheek as I stood there across your graveyard.
Soon did I realize that destiny and me don’t go hand in hand...
There are no words to describe for the love that I shared with you.
The love that is so real; that I want to feel it without any pain when we apart.

Hi guys how u all doing, I started to write this poem from a bright side but I do not know how and when I changed it to something depressing. I guess I am more comfortable writing sad and gloomy poems than lively and colorful ones...

Satisfaction

I will love the sun for it warms my bones;
yet I will love the rain for it cleanses my spirit.

I will love the light for it shows me the way;
yet I will love the darkness for it shows me the stars.

I will welcome happiness for it enlarges my heart;
yet I will endure sadness for it opens my soul.

I will acknowledge rewards for they are my due;
yet I will welcome obstacles for they are my challenges.

My shalini

It was big day for Sathish, a tall ,young and attractive 27 year old guy. It was his first day at work. With heart full of excitement and mind full of nervousness he walked swiftly across his office to the managers room.
Good morning Mr.sathish. Hope you had a good start of the day. Let me take you to your cabin and you can start your work right ahead.
Thanks Mr. John uttered Sathish.

In no time he was in his cabin working with his new laptop that the company had provided him. This is the first time in his life to be away from his mom and sister. It has been almost three days since he came to Toronto with a new hope and enthusiasm to begin another part of his life. He was missing his Archu kutti terribly, he picked up his phone and quickly dialed her cell phone number and cut it in no second thinking it would late night in India and she would sleeping like a baby all curled up with her favorite blue blanket. A grin broke down his jaw line as he remembered the last line Archu yelled at him before boarding the plane…”Anna anga poi vaalla surittittu iru..ennakku vella kaari anni la vendam, Namba shalini maari ru ponna paaru enna”. Shalini Ajith kumar she meant.

It was 12.30pm and his stomach was making weird noises already. He took $20 from his desk and went out in search for the cafeteria. As he was walking down the lobby his senses smelled Ralph Lauren, his favorite women’s cologne. He was taken back to his college days when Anjali, a big multimillionaires daughter used to wear it everyday. All the guys went crazy for her. Who wouldn’t? Combo of attractiveness and money together. He remembered Ram who proposed her 17 times. I am not even exaggerating. Poor guy had to hear answers like no, NO, NOWAY, HELL NO. Anjali was Archu’s college mate and her best friend. Anjali has been to our house couple of times. She must have felt weird sitting in a chair instead of a comfy couch. Walking into a small house compared to her big bungalow. Looking at me study engineering in my college days Archu also wanted to do the same. So she joined computer science in SRM. I remember doing most of her assignments while she used to chat with Anjali for hours.
If I am not wrong I think it was June 21st when Anjali stood close to me one day when I was busy ironing my shirt and getting ready to go to my friends first wedding. She exclaimed “I love you”. I was taken aback. More like a shock. Turned around to see if Archu was playing any pranks. What? My voice was unclear. She said I love you again with a strong and confident look. Even though it felt good hearing (considering all the guys who didn’t get to hear this) I knew it was wrong. I explained to her subtly, you see….you are my sisters age and I can’t imagine myself with someone who is almost exactly like my sister. Plus I am really sorry to say that I never thought or saw you in that angle, I have always thought of you like my Archu….like my sister. OUCH that should hurt. Well she is in London now doing her masters. She compelled Archu to come with her, but I didn’t want my baby to go suffer all alone in an unknown land.
Brushing of his past thoughts he quickly turned right and left to find nobody around him. He walked 3 three steps ahead when he heard “excuse me”. He turned around to find a 5.4” tall woman standing behind him. With her heels it will be around 2” more he thought. Beautiful black curly hair coming till her shoulders, eyes as sharp as a laser beam piercing through her eyes. She was wearing a light blue top with black formal pants to match with her light blue crystal earrings. He noticed her silver pendent with an OM sign and Veena written in her name tag. He felt happy. He wanted to talk something, but couldn’t. His heart was beating fast. He felt he had no control over himself. It was like an illusion. Before he could say anything she said “ungaloda $20”. He wanted to ask neega tamizh aa…but that would really stupid since she just spoke in tamil. She was looking right into his eyes and he couldn’t help starring her. He burst out asking neenga India aa?
Veena-No
Sathish-apparam..from where?
Veena-therinji enna panna pora
Sathish-err..chumma oru general knowledge k

She handed him his $20 bill and walked past him muttering cha indha payangale ippdi than…parthu sirichida koodathe….she turned back to look at him…he was still standing at the same place starring at her. She got scared and disappeared into one of the hallways.
Sathish was lost in his own world. He has never felt something like this before. Her smile wouldn’t go away from his mind. He knew at that moment. He took out his cell phone dialed to Archu caring less about the time difference. As soon as she said hello….he yelled from top of his throat…..”unnoda Anni ya parthutain diii…shalini ya vida nalla irrukaaaa….”

Back to school

When I was 3 years old I used to cry everyday before entering my classroom. My mom used to sit right across my class in a bench under a tree to smile at me whenever I looked outside. I still remember her words….nan inga than irruken..kavala padatha..

When I was 5 years old my dad walked me to the bus stop which was 10 minutes from my house. I still remember the dad and daughter talk we used to share.

When I was 10 years old my mom made my hair while my dad helped me put my shoes while I was watching T.V. I still remember the days when both of my parents would be late to work because of me.

When I was 15 years old my mom ran behind me giving me food. I still remember the look I gave her which meant please do not embarrass me in front of my friends.

When I am 20 years old….I wake up with the sound of my alarm with neither my mom nor dad beside me to feed me or do my hair. I remember the golden days passed by me.

Memories rushed towards me as I saw small children waiting for the school bus with their parents…with immense hope..with a big question mark about their future. I saw the same spark and fear in their eyes which I had 17 years ago. I wish I could rewind those days where I can be my dads little girl reaching for his hands to hold and protect me.
Now I am independent, I earn for my own small pleasures and of course to pay my loan : )….i can cook for myself and carry myself in a presentable way. And none of this could have happened without my parents.

And this reminds me that my school if starting from Monday : (….welcome back to world of sleepless nights….last minute cramming…late submissions…skipping lectures…and ..fairly no healthy food to swallow in the breaks..

*_* About myself *_*

I'm thinking about: my dreams

I said: never give up in your life

I wish: I was in chennai celebrating pillayar chaturthi

I hear: anything and everything

I wonder: why Mcdonalds is always packed :P

I regret: NO regrets..only lessons

I am: the luckiest girl in the world

I dance(d): when I am excited and when I hear kuthu songs(esp those of vijay)

I sing: (I sang) all the time..happiness through sorrows.

I cry: within myself(only few ppl have seen me cry..that would be my mom and sis)

I'm not always: jealous :)

I make with my hands: perusa onnum illa…everything that hands can make

I Write: when I am really happy or sad

I confuse: myself and everyone around me

I need: my own car

And finally: I thank Ponnarasi for making me write something..or else ppl would start thinking I have stopped blogging too…:)

Feelings

Don’t know
I really don’t know how to express it
Or put it into words
Emotions run down my spine
Tears stay calm inside
Sometimes i wish i could just say what i want
And Sometimes i feel music is the only way out
but yet
They lie dormant for years now
just waiting for that small stir......
for it to explode any minute.

Hi guys how you all doing….long time ehh…sorry again for making you all wait, enna panradhu….nan holidays la than innum busy ya irruken…Just scribbled something for the 15 minutes I got…will be back with a better post soon..untill then..tata

Lucky and UnLucky

Why do some people get all the luck while others never get the breaks they deserve?


A psychologist says he has discovered the answer.
People’s thoughts and behaviour are responsible for much of their good and bad fortune.

Unlucky people are generally more tense than lucky people, and this anxiety disrupts their ability to notice the unexpected. As a result, they miss opportunities because they are too focused on looking for something else.
They go to parties intent on finding their perfect partner and so miss opportunities to make good friends.
They look through newspapers determined to find certain types of job advertisements and miss other types of jobs.

Lucky people are more relaxed and open, and therefore see what is there rather than just what they are looking for.
They are skilled at creating and noticing chance opportunities, make lucky decisions by listening to their intuition, create self-fulfilling prophesies via positive expectations and adopt a resilient attitude that transforms bad luck into good.


when i think about it Luck is a just a form of superstition which is interpreted differently by different individuals.
Luck is very often a self-fulfilling prophecy .......Have a Happy and Lucky life.

Random thoughts

Hi hi hi…hope everyone are safe and sound…finally I get half hour to scribble something on my blog…


I am really hungry and I feel like eating pongal…

Saw da vinci code today..how many of you guys actually liked that movie?

Why is the sky so dark today without any stars...

I want to take my drivers test but I am not able to do reverse parking properly…I take friggin half hour to park at one place…: )

Went to Tim Hortons and drank a large ice cap with hazel nut flavour…

My computer has virus…I see too many warnings

When is vettaiyadu vilayadu releasing…cant wait to see it…

I am going to buy a ipod nano..bye bye mp3 player

I climbed 12 floors up and down today(3 times) since the elevator wasn’t working…

I forgot my dads birthday yesterday…feel realy guilty..:(

spain lost in todays match...

there was a gay parade today near my place...:P

work was really boring today...i accidently pulled my friends chair when she was going to sit..hehe..(believe me it was an accident)

why is life so dull suddenly...

got a good collection of ilaiyraja songs for cheap price..

oki doki guess that’s enough for now…I am off to bed…tata



Hmm yea…about my last article…thanks everyone for ur great suggestion…and as asked I have to mention that pooja chose Vikram..:)..