Yen jeevan...jeevan nee thane

Thookangalai thooki chendrai
ekangalai thoovi chendrai
unnai thaandi pogum pothu
veesum kaatrin veechu veru

nil endru nee sonnal
en kaalam nagarathe
nee soodum poovelam
oru bothum uthirathe
kathal yenai ketka villai

-Vaaranam Aayiram

Thanks to shiv for the songs >:D<

You know your engulphed by studying when

<> You close your eyes and all you can see is little cute cells floating around and different type muscles moving in different directions.

<> You set your alarm to get up after an hour of nap in the afternoon and you wake thinking “wow its morning already”. I don’t have to stay up all night to study.

<> You make something to eat in the very less time you get and even after realizing that it tastes like crap you put it in a box and store it for the next 3 days.

<>You keep looking at the time when someone calls and think you could have finished reading one page in these 15 minutes.

<> You look forward to sleep for those 4-5 hours.

My theory for the coming years- The more I know, the less I kill.

The worst thing someone can do is to compare food with a cadaver. "Umm that looks like chicken meat from that angle" ...Who the hell does that?

Stupid guy...ruined my appetite to eat chicken for the next month or so.

Chao

Welcome to Statia

Statia...i have never heard about this place in my life before...never imagined in my slightest of dreams that i would end up here to fulfill my dreams.

So here i am trying to figure out what to do next...what to cook next...what to study next...

Life in Statia is very simple....people are so friendly that i am scared to go out. i have to wave and say hello to everyone that walks by...doesn't matter even if its a small boy. my shoulder joints are paining right now after a 10 min walk...so imagine how many times i would have raised my arms.

Well you can chose to put your head down and pretend that you don't notice anyone...but when its time for your clinical..you have to encounter with these people to do all your tests..and these people remember your face simply because they consider you rude if you don't smile or wave at them....and who forgets rude and evil people?

Its a very beautiful island but i am afraid that i am only going to be left with memories of my dreadful studying.

Anyways you all enjoy your life and tell me about all your colorful things and i will update with all my atrocious ones.

BTW i can see the Atlantic ocean from my room...isnt that cool?


P.S- Thanks a lot for all your wishes and advice

Sniff..Sniff..Bye for now

First of all thanks to all those people who were concerned about what happened to me in the past one month. One of them asked if I had killed some patient illegally and absconded from this planet. Some great I friends I have.

So I need two things from all of you
A good advice
Pray for me

Plan for the next 3 years
I am off to Caribbean islands to finish my MD program. In a year I will be in US doing my rotations and Residency. I am not sure if I will be able to blog as often as I used to but I will try to update whenever I get some time in my hands which I highly doubt.

Time for some advice…anything and everything to help me get through this tough phase of my life. Living away from home…cooking on my own…no more partying…no more first day movie shows…no more sight seeing (Raz you have to update me on this..lol)…

Hope you guys don’t miss my blabbering posts too much.

Quick peek

Three things you would like to take to heaven with you?

Missing those childhood treats

Thain/then mittai

Kadala mittai

Wheel chips (no brand/no name)

Milk bikies

Aavin paalkhoa (this is the best)

Kismi bar

Amul butter

Vegetable puffs

Rose milk

Soan papdi

Nutrine chocolates


Ferrero Rosher is one of my favorite chocolates after Cadburys Dark..but nothing can beat all these fabulous treats that I have had in the past. And the most amazing thing is that you just have to walk to the nearest “potti kadai” to get all of this.

Little pleasures

● Getting wet in rain
● Waking up couple of minutes before my alarm rings and falling back to sleep again
● Smelling the flowers
● Receiving mail from close friends
● Walking on wet sand
● Smell of kerosene
● Compliments from your favorite someone
● Finding your old friends in orkut/ facebook
● Saambar and neyyi
● Surya
● Finding something important that you thought was lost
● That one phone call to put you back into shape
● Small surprises
● Pillayar
● All the traffic lights showing green signal
● Chocolates
● A.R.R
● Making up different games to play with kids
● Idli and meen kozhambu
● Getting calls when least expected
● Laughing so hard that you end up crying
● Watching couples share their ice-cream/drink
● First snow fall
● Mom’s food
● Watching Anbe Sivam
● Hot south Indian coffee
● Looking at old pictures
● Listening to a normal beating heart
● Sleeping after a hot shower
● Daydreaming
● Having someone wipe your tears when you’re crying
● Meeting someone who exactly thinks like you
● Flirting
● Screaming in the theatre for Rajini’s movies
● Watching a baby sleep
● Puppy’s wet nose
● Finishing sudoku in less than 5 minutes
● Late night cravings

Great lyrics

Movie : Jaane Tu ...Ya Jaane Na

A.R.R Rocks!!!

Kabhi Kabhi aditi Zindagi ,Mein yuhi koi apna lagta hai
Kabhi Kabhi aditi woh bichad jaye to Ek sapna lagta hai
Aise mein koi kaise apnne aasun ko behene se roke
Aur kaise koi soch de Everythings gona be ok?

Kabhi kabhi to lage zindagi mein rahi na khushi aur na maza.
Kabhi kabhi to lage har din muskhil Aur har pal ek saza
Aise mein koi kaise muskuraye kaise hasde kush ho ke?
Aur kaise koi soch de Everything gona be ok

Tagged by Sunil

6 Whatevers About Me:
~I don’t worry about my tomorrow, I take the day as it goes.
~I love to tear apart the lyrics in the songs and look at them in different angle and perspective. ~Music is my life.
~ I love pets…Dogs, fishes, birds. Sadly I have none. Well flies are my only pet for now.
~I can stare at the sky for hours and hours without getting bored.
~I love surprises.

5 Things I miss in my life right now:
~My good old school days
~My lady bird cycle
~My innocent look
~Rahul dravid in Indian cricket team
~NS, DG, MG, NN, VJ, KS- these are all my friends who ditched me and left me alone. : )

10 Things I wanna achieve within a decade:
1. Buy a Penthouse.
2. Gain more courage to tell any bad news to my patients. So far I have been very bad at this job.
3. I would love to go to Egypt.
4. Finish my PhD.
5. Buy my dad the car he has been wanting.
6. Have a dog…preferably chocolate Labrador, white Shih Tzu or a black poodle. I have already picked out the names for each one too.
7. Learn to drive a bike.

Cant think of anything else.

The Book Tag
**Pick up the nearest book.Open to page 123.Find the fifth sentence.Post the next three sentences.Tag five people, and acknowledge the person who tagged you.**

Thrombocytopenic Purpura is a platelet disorder with a falling platelet count, leading to bleeding into the skin, mucous membranes and internal cavities and organs. There are two types :ITP and TTP.

-Handbook of Diseases.

Tag five people
VJ
Uma
Raja
Mitr’s
Arun

Love is all we need

A lady in my hospital asked me yesterday “how do you manage to have a smile in your face if all you’re seeing is fear, worries and negativity every day? “

I asked her “how are you able smile now when you know that the disease your husband is suffering from has no cure”
She looked at me for a second and gave me a tight hug.

You either get used to the things around you or you simply act like you did.

Like the change??

Finally i did it...with a heavy heart i left my old template :(

Thanks to Arti :D

Life

Among all the hardships
Between all the sorrows
Within all the difficulties
Amid all the variance
Life still seems beautiful


I wonder why?
Is it because of you?

I can’t say how I feel

Why is it so hard for me to express my feelings?
I often wonder about this but never get a clear answer. I have so much of love built up in my heart for everyone around me. But they never come out in words. Simply because I don’t show it or maybe I don’t know how to show it.
I keep thinking to myself that people who are close to me will know how I feel but they never do. Even if they have a slightest worry I can easily recognize and sense how they are feeling. But till now no one has ever judged me right. I keep smiling all the time but that doesn’t mean that I am happy all the time. I guess I act too well.
Anyone else felt the same way?

My tag

How about if I create a tag?

So here it goes.
Write at least one thing about me. Good or bad ...anything is welcome :). If you don’t know me personally or don’t know me enough, I will give you a hint…you can simply say something by looking at my Surya pictures ;)

And I would like to tag all of you in it. I am eagerly waiting to write novels about each of one you guys. So lets start

Blushing

I am really impressed by someone.
He came..he made all of us laugh..he made me laugh..he made my day..he made coffee for me…he played with the kids…he left and I am still here.
No no…nothing like you think…:)
He is way too older than me :(
But if I ever find someone he would be like him :D


*hopefully he doesnt read this*
**Raz pls.. un personal Qs elam mail pannidu..inga maanatha vaangatha**

???

If someone smokes or drinks..Does that make them a bad person?
We can say it’s a bad habit but we can’t say that their character is bad.

Something that frustrates me… “Don’t be friends with him/her…they smoke”

U made my day

Thanks^infinity...LOVE YOU RAZ>:D<

Only music

Song that makes me want to fall in love- Snehithane from Alaipayuthe
Look into my eyes : Bryan Adams

When I am down- ovvoru pookalume from Autograph

All time fav- Mandram vantha from Mouna Raagam

Song that makes me cry- Uyire from Bombay
Now recently Uyirile Uyirile from Vellithirai

My heart skips a beat – Suttum vizhi from Ghajini
Tujhe dekha to ye jana from DDLJ

Something that I never want to listen again- Un perai sonnale from Dum Dum Dum

Nostalgic feelings- Yeh jo des hai from Swades
Vande Mataram-A.R.Rahman

Lets get up n dance- Naka muka(not sure which movie this is from)

Quick energy- Munbe vaa from JOK

Puts me to sleep-Theme music from Bombay

Made me think- Kaatrin mozhi from Mozhi

And the list goes on…any personal fav’s for you guys??

....

Sometimes I wonder to myself how pathetic my life has become.
This is not a business it’s my life. And no matter how hard I shout from here no one is here to hear that. Yes I am talking about my marriage. And NO… I am not got getting married any time soon :)
I was talking to my uncle today and as usual he brought the topic about my marriage. He told me that he has seen couple of guys and the next time I go to India select one of them and see if I get along with them.
So on what basis do I select this guy?
Education?
Character?
Family?
Or how much he loves me?

And how would I know who that guy is?

She builds this sand castle with perfection only to find out that waves have crushed it the next day. This is every girls dream. To find a guy who loves her more than anything else in his world.

I would rather let him choose me and this is the point where I leave it to fate. Destiny is something we choose to go after.... Fate is something that happens to us, and seemingly takes away our choices, but in fact actually leads us back towards the choice of Destiny we already made before we were born.

So i wait for who- ever- you- are to knock my door.

~Every Indian girls fate~

Some things to learn

27 yr old guy-->Multiple sclerosis-->lives alone-->mother died when he was 21 and father remarried-->unable to walk-->studying in college and is graduating this year.

Only when we come across people like this we think how great our life is. I learn everyday from my patients. Often we get so caught up in the every day grind of living we forget to truly appreciate what we have. I'm not just talking about a home, food and clothes.

I am so proud of him and I really hope he has a bright future. As I think about his “bright future” tears automatically start forming in my eyes. Sometimes I think god if not fair with everyone. I wish I had the power to increase his life span by 10 more years.

***Multiple sclerosis is degenerative disease which affects the central nervous system. No known cure.