Sniff..Sniff..Bye for now

First of all thanks to all those people who were concerned about what happened to me in the past one month. One of them asked if I had killed some patient illegally and absconded from this planet. Some great I friends I have.

So I need two things from all of you
A good advice
Pray for me

Plan for the next 3 years
I am off to Caribbean islands to finish my MD program. In a year I will be in US doing my rotations and Residency. I am not sure if I will be able to blog as often as I used to but I will try to update whenever I get some time in my hands which I highly doubt.

Time for some advice…anything and everything to help me get through this tough phase of my life. Living away from home…cooking on my own…no more partying…no more first day movie shows…no more sight seeing (Raz you have to update me on this..lol)…

Hope you guys don’t miss my blabbering posts too much.

Quick peek

Three things you would like to take to heaven with you?

Missing those childhood treats

Thain/then mittai

Kadala mittai

Wheel chips (no brand/no name)

Milk bikies

Aavin paalkhoa (this is the best)

Kismi bar

Amul butter

Vegetable puffs

Rose milk

Soan papdi

Nutrine chocolates


Ferrero Rosher is one of my favorite chocolates after Cadburys Dark..but nothing can beat all these fabulous treats that I have had in the past. And the most amazing thing is that you just have to walk to the nearest “potti kadai” to get all of this.

Little pleasures

● Getting wet in rain
● Waking up couple of minutes before my alarm rings and falling back to sleep again
● Smelling the flowers
● Receiving mail from close friends
● Walking on wet sand
● Smell of kerosene
● Compliments from your favorite someone
● Finding your old friends in orkut/ facebook
● Saambar and neyyi
● Surya
● Finding something important that you thought was lost
● That one phone call to put you back into shape
● Small surprises
● Pillayar
● All the traffic lights showing green signal
● Chocolates
● A.R.R
● Making up different games to play with kids
● Idli and meen kozhambu
● Getting calls when least expected
● Laughing so hard that you end up crying
● Watching couples share their ice-cream/drink
● First snow fall
● Mom’s food
● Watching Anbe Sivam
● Hot south Indian coffee
● Looking at old pictures
● Listening to a normal beating heart
● Sleeping after a hot shower
● Daydreaming
● Having someone wipe your tears when you’re crying
● Meeting someone who exactly thinks like you
● Flirting
● Screaming in the theatre for Rajini’s movies
● Watching a baby sleep
● Puppy’s wet nose
● Finishing sudoku in less than 5 minutes
● Late night cravings

Great lyrics

Movie : Jaane Tu ...Ya Jaane Na

A.R.R Rocks!!!

Kabhi Kabhi aditi Zindagi ,Mein yuhi koi apna lagta hai
Kabhi Kabhi aditi woh bichad jaye to Ek sapna lagta hai
Aise mein koi kaise apnne aasun ko behene se roke
Aur kaise koi soch de Everythings gona be ok?

Kabhi kabhi to lage zindagi mein rahi na khushi aur na maza.
Kabhi kabhi to lage har din muskhil Aur har pal ek saza
Aise mein koi kaise muskuraye kaise hasde kush ho ke?
Aur kaise koi soch de Everything gona be ok

Tagged by Sunil

6 Whatevers About Me:
~I don’t worry about my tomorrow, I take the day as it goes.
~I love to tear apart the lyrics in the songs and look at them in different angle and perspective. ~Music is my life.
~ I love pets…Dogs, fishes, birds. Sadly I have none. Well flies are my only pet for now.
~I can stare at the sky for hours and hours without getting bored.
~I love surprises.

5 Things I miss in my life right now:
~My good old school days
~My lady bird cycle
~My innocent look
~Rahul dravid in Indian cricket team
~NS, DG, MG, NN, VJ, KS- these are all my friends who ditched me and left me alone. : )

10 Things I wanna achieve within a decade:
1. Buy a Penthouse.
2. Gain more courage to tell any bad news to my patients. So far I have been very bad at this job.
3. I would love to go to Egypt.
4. Finish my PhD.
5. Buy my dad the car he has been wanting.
6. Have a dog…preferably chocolate Labrador, white Shih Tzu or a black poodle. I have already picked out the names for each one too.
7. Learn to drive a bike.

Cant think of anything else.

The Book Tag
**Pick up the nearest book.Open to page 123.Find the fifth sentence.Post the next three sentences.Tag five people, and acknowledge the person who tagged you.**

Thrombocytopenic Purpura is a platelet disorder with a falling platelet count, leading to bleeding into the skin, mucous membranes and internal cavities and organs. There are two types :ITP and TTP.

-Handbook of Diseases.

Tag five people
VJ
Uma
Raja
Mitr’s
Arun

Love is all we need

A lady in my hospital asked me yesterday “how do you manage to have a smile in your face if all you’re seeing is fear, worries and negativity every day? “

I asked her “how are you able smile now when you know that the disease your husband is suffering from has no cure”
She looked at me for a second and gave me a tight hug.

You either get used to the things around you or you simply act like you did.

Like the change??

Finally i did it...with a heavy heart i left my old template :(

Thanks to Arti :D

Life

Among all the hardships
Between all the sorrows
Within all the difficulties
Amid all the variance
Life still seems beautiful


I wonder why?
Is it because of you?

I can’t say how I feel

Why is it so hard for me to express my feelings?
I often wonder about this but never get a clear answer. I have so much of love built up in my heart for everyone around me. But they never come out in words. Simply because I don’t show it or maybe I don’t know how to show it.
I keep thinking to myself that people who are close to me will know how I feel but they never do. Even if they have a slightest worry I can easily recognize and sense how they are feeling. But till now no one has ever judged me right. I keep smiling all the time but that doesn’t mean that I am happy all the time. I guess I act too well.
Anyone else felt the same way?

My tag

How about if I create a tag?

So here it goes.
Write at least one thing about me. Good or bad ...anything is welcome :). If you don’t know me personally or don’t know me enough, I will give you a hint…you can simply say something by looking at my Surya pictures ;)

And I would like to tag all of you in it. I am eagerly waiting to write novels about each of one you guys. So lets start

Blushing

I am really impressed by someone.
He came..he made all of us laugh..he made me laugh..he made my day..he made coffee for me…he played with the kids…he left and I am still here.
No no…nothing like you think…:)
He is way too older than me :(
But if I ever find someone he would be like him :D


*hopefully he doesnt read this*
**Raz pls.. un personal Qs elam mail pannidu..inga maanatha vaangatha**

???

If someone smokes or drinks..Does that make them a bad person?
We can say it’s a bad habit but we can’t say that their character is bad.

Something that frustrates me… “Don’t be friends with him/her…they smoke”

U made my day

Thanks^infinity...LOVE YOU RAZ>:D<

Only music

Song that makes me want to fall in love- Snehithane from Alaipayuthe
Look into my eyes : Bryan Adams

When I am down- ovvoru pookalume from Autograph

All time fav- Mandram vantha from Mouna Raagam

Song that makes me cry- Uyire from Bombay
Now recently Uyirile Uyirile from Vellithirai

My heart skips a beat – Suttum vizhi from Ghajini
Tujhe dekha to ye jana from DDLJ

Something that I never want to listen again- Un perai sonnale from Dum Dum Dum

Nostalgic feelings- Yeh jo des hai from Swades
Vande Mataram-A.R.Rahman

Lets get up n dance- Naka muka(not sure which movie this is from)

Quick energy- Munbe vaa from JOK

Puts me to sleep-Theme music from Bombay

Made me think- Kaatrin mozhi from Mozhi

And the list goes on…any personal fav’s for you guys??

....

Sometimes I wonder to myself how pathetic my life has become.
This is not a business it’s my life. And no matter how hard I shout from here no one is here to hear that. Yes I am talking about my marriage. And NO… I am not got getting married any time soon :)
I was talking to my uncle today and as usual he brought the topic about my marriage. He told me that he has seen couple of guys and the next time I go to India select one of them and see if I get along with them.
So on what basis do I select this guy?
Education?
Character?
Family?
Or how much he loves me?

And how would I know who that guy is?

She builds this sand castle with perfection only to find out that waves have crushed it the next day. This is every girls dream. To find a guy who loves her more than anything else in his world.

I would rather let him choose me and this is the point where I leave it to fate. Destiny is something we choose to go after.... Fate is something that happens to us, and seemingly takes away our choices, but in fact actually leads us back towards the choice of Destiny we already made before we were born.

So i wait for who- ever- you- are to knock my door.

~Every Indian girls fate~

Some things to learn

27 yr old guy-->Multiple sclerosis-->lives alone-->mother died when he was 21 and father remarried-->unable to walk-->studying in college and is graduating this year.

Only when we come across people like this we think how great our life is. I learn everyday from my patients. Often we get so caught up in the every day grind of living we forget to truly appreciate what we have. I'm not just talking about a home, food and clothes.

I am so proud of him and I really hope he has a bright future. As I think about his “bright future” tears automatically start forming in my eyes. Sometimes I think god if not fair with everyone. I wish I had the power to increase his life span by 10 more years.

***Multiple sclerosis is degenerative disease which affects the central nervous system. No known cure.

My hero

I can’t help wondering today where the years have gone since you were just my little girl,
Reaching out for me to hold you, to protect you, to love you
I can’t help remembering those days,
but I also see you as you are now- mature and strong,
no longer in need of me to protect you
I hope you know, that I am still here to hold you when you want me to and always, always to love you.

That’s exactly how my dad feels every time I take a step forward in my life. I don’t want him to think that I am old enough to take care of myself. I don’t want him to let go of me thinking I know everything. It feels great to know that no matter what happens he will always be there for me to offer his unconditional love.
I think there is nothing wrong in doing certain things that makes him feel better. If asking for permission every time I go out is what he wants, I would be happy to give him that small pleasure. If consulting him before making any decision is what he expects, why not give him that authority to do so. After all he was the one who made decisions about my life when I was young.

I'm daddy's little girl, not because I need it...but because he loves me that way, and because I've been blessed with the maturity to see the wonder of it all.

The right one

To all the women- write at least 3 things that you expect and don’t expect from your guy


To all the men- write at least 3 things that you expect and don’t expect from your girl


Let me do the inauguration

i like
1. Good sense of humour
2. Trust
3. Broad minded
4. Intelligent/ super smart :)

A big No to-
chauvinists
hypocrites

I need you

To teach me how to ride a bike
To show me the right thing in my life
To stand up for me when others blame me
To fight for me when a guy teases me
To show your plate when someone forces me to eat my-not- so- favorite vegetable
To guide me to make decisions
To make special food for me
To protect me from evil eyes
To help me set up my computer
To walk with me when I feel lonely
To crack a joke if I feel down
To cry with me
To play with me
To feed me when i am stressed
To help me help others
To stay awake till I reach home in the night
To be with me forever


Where are you when I need you?
I want my brother back